I've realized that I will not be sleeping a full night until the end of 1st summer session when I leave for China.
To further illustrate this notion, I will give you an excerpt of my thoughts from last night while I was laying in bed:
"...Oh my god I can't believe I'm going to China. I wonder how long the flight will be. I wonder who I'm going to sit next to on the flight. I wonder if they're going to want to talk the whole time. I bet I'll sleep a lot. Maybe I'll buy an 8-hour battery for my PowerBook so I can watch DVD's on the plane. Should I bring my PowerBook to China? That would suck if it got stolen. Wow, I don't think I've ever gone that long without checking my email. Maybe it'll be good to be away from my email for that long. I wonder if I'm going to get sick when I travel. That would suck to get diarrhea. I hope they have real toilets. I hope I don't get sick on the bus form the Hong Kong airport to our hotel. I wonder who I'm going to make friends with in China. I wonder if we'll be able to communicate with Chinese students. I wonder what the gay scene is like in China. I don't think I've ever known a gay Asian. No wait, I went to that forum on Asian-American homosexual students. I'm gonna miss Collins. Oh my god I'm gonna have my own apartment and get a kitty. OH MY GOD KITTY! I can't wait to get a kitty. It's gonna be the best fucking cat in the world, and its name will be Benson, and I'm gonna call it my little Benny Wenny poopy pants. I hope it likes to cuddle with me. I wonder what it's gonna look like. I can't wait till the day that I walk into the animal shelter and pick out a kitty. I wonder how I'll choose which one to get. I wonder what its meow will sound like. I hope it's a cute little meow. Maybe I want it to be low-pitched like George's. I'm gonna pat it on its little head. I wonder what San Francisco will be like. I've never been on a trip all by myself before. I wonder if I'll meet anybody cool there. I wonder what kind of activities they'll have besides classes. Ooh I'll probably see Adam there. I wonder if I'll end up living in San Francisco. I wonder what I'll do after I graduate. I think it would be cool to work in the Duty Office for a year and then go to grad school. I can't wait to go to Chicago. I love hanging out with Jack. I can't wait to get a kitty. Oh my gosh I can't believe I'm gonna get a kitty. It's gonna be the best kitty ever. Cats are the best..."
And pretty much the same thing will be repeating over and over in my head until I leave for China. So, if you see me, and I'm tired and crabby, just know that it's been a long night.
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Hmmm.... sounds vaguely familiar. I remember a night that I was lying awake, mind racing, thinking about the future, thinking about winter in Missouri, I get sick in the winter in Missouri, maybe I should move to Arizona, Arizona has no trees, I like trees, I'd miss the trees... next thing you know. it's 3:30 in the morning and I'm ticked off because there are no trees in Arizona!
Ooo... ooo... here's a better one. I'm lying awake, watching the minutes tick off the clock, I'm thinking about how time is ticking by, and I go to work 5 days a week, then I work on the house all day Saturday and half of Sunday (those of you who know me now won't believe that, but it's true, I used to do that), then I think about my two children who, not long ago were babies, but not anymore. Time is ticking by before my very eyes and my children are growing up and I'm spending all this time working! That very night I vowed to stop working on the house (and those who know me now, know I kept my promise) and start enjoying my children. So the next 15 years I volunteered for Cub Scout stuff and baseball stuff and classroom stuff and went to dance recitals and school plays and school programs and softball games and loved every minute of it!
So... missing one night of sleep may not only be no big deal, but may actually be good for you, however, if you are missing sleep night after night, listen to your mother, she's a pretty smart lady (though, don't tell her I told you that)..
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